I was not able to play

I can't help but feel this is being misread,

The way my eyes are rolling back probably looks like I'm dead,

And the completely sporadic jolt of my head,

Leaves little to the imagination of what they think i've taken instead.

Sweating profusely but thats nothing new,

The guys said before i looked messed and i think they blame it on you,

But when your messed up what else am i to do,

I defended myself as I could feel that my truth had just withdrew,

Countless sentiments leaving me in unrest,

It doesn't matter how many times you tell a man down he's the best,

The seeds of self doubt have already begun to infest,

Cause to truly judge a man there is no selection process or test.

Pulling me apart between small fame and obscurity,

How can i now grab the hand that has reached out for me?

Tell the wasted time boy it's him that you pity,

And how faded against the stage light an outline is all you can see

You fucked it, you fucked it, you fucked it for trust,

I swear to myself in the mirror with no pity for myself and for her theres no lust,

You made out that by breaking me you just weren't to fussed,

Now all your good sentiments have broken down into dust.

Cancel the last one it was far too over thought,

The shallowing clapping has lead me into a state where i'm distraught,

To think of the money you spent here and the tickets you bought,

Too see me so useless pining over something i can't remember i sought

So thank you ladies and gentlemen and we'll see you again,

Terribly sorry for my behavior but for you it's inappropriate but for me it is pain,

I watch as the curtain closes and my sense of awareness i begin to regain,

But by now its too late and any attempt to salvage is an attempt thats in vein.