Pffft

Well do you think she'll buy some of my beautiful roses?
Or do you think they'll chip in for blow up their noses?
How long is a long time and how long do i wait?
Wether i'm an hour before or behind you know i'll be late,
As i said to puddles i meant no offence in my care for you,
But you still find twistings in my poems to start arguments due,
Lightning doesn't strike me once let alone twice,
And the lightning round here would probably go get it;s brother to roll the dice,
The casinos churning out blues for raggedly rich,
Torn apart at the seams of my rainy days blues stitch,
Now caught in my own crossfire like americanism on our shore,
A story told so many times it's now somewhat of a bore,
Chasing up tagged i wear the mark on my chest,
In my gang forever never the leather shooting off at the rest,
And i may on occasion be somewhat of a scalleywag,
but you were more the kind of girl for just a back alley shag,
Don't stop mid pirouette to try and slow me down,
Cause i think i got addicted to your proper sorry frown,
Now clean and sober I stumble up to your door,
Tell the king i didn't notice him as i drifted towards your floor.

I was not able to play

I can't help but feel this is being misread,

The way my eyes are rolling back probably looks like I'm dead,

And the completely sporadic jolt of my head,

Leaves little to the imagination of what they think i've taken instead.

Sweating profusely but thats nothing new,

The guys said before i looked messed and i think they blame it on you,

But when your messed up what else am i to do,

I defended myself as I could feel that my truth had just withdrew,

Countless sentiments leaving me in unrest,

It doesn't matter how many times you tell a man down he's the best,

The seeds of self doubt have already begun to infest,

Cause to truly judge a man there is no selection process or test.

Pulling me apart between small fame and obscurity,

How can i now grab the hand that has reached out for me?

Tell the wasted time boy it's him that you pity,

And how faded against the stage light an outline is all you can see

You fucked it, you fucked it, you fucked it for trust,

I swear to myself in the mirror with no pity for myself and for her theres no lust,

You made out that by breaking me you just weren't to fussed,

Now all your good sentiments have broken down into dust.

Cancel the last one it was far too over thought,

The shallowing clapping has lead me into a state where i'm distraught,

To think of the money you spent here and the tickets you bought,

Too see me so useless pining over something i can't remember i sought

So thank you ladies and gentlemen and we'll see you again,

Terribly sorry for my behavior but for you it's inappropriate but for me it is pain,

I watch as the curtain closes and my sense of awareness i begin to regain,

But by now its too late and any attempt to salvage is an attempt thats in vein.

I'm Just Gunna Start Writing And See What Happens.

Taking one step to step to another crack,

Take a few more cause theres no point holding back,

Paper in pocket tells you all I have done,

Jobshop blues is a consolation prize not what I won,

Literally so broke that I can't get the bus,

Blew all the cash on draw layed down covered in dust,

Never thought that I'd be the one going through this,

Meaning of my hard work has summed up in a kiss,

Plentifull planned and well executed,

For the first time in a while I've got suited and booted.

Then that rush seems to quickly wear thin,

As she draws up her hand to scratch on her chin,

As her right arm comes up to support,

the left hand scratch of well balanced thought,

Maybe a call in a week or two,

Maybe never a call like the auburn haired girl that I knew,

Don't dwell on those feelings son,

Cause she's not coming back to put her hand on, 

Your hands on her hands like bricks of house,

Dilapidated and empty flaming with no water to douse,

All the fire within me raging ever so strong,

Creeping up from bed and sectioning the wrong,

But despite this plain filter between black and white,

I'm unable to make the decision and choose what is right,

I found a girl who makes the problems away,

But if she ever asked to see me I still don't know what I would say,

This is gettting faster matter of fact,

I gotta keep this work can't afford to get sacked,

I had to walk for best part hour and a half,

Just to hand in some paper and be ignored by the staff,

To turn around and walk straight back again,

The fleeting feet feeling starting to cause me pain,

A mild discomfort that seems to grow and grow,

Not the kind of fucker to put it as a status so everyone knows,

Why would I want a few hundred people to care,

About the fact I'm findin this life to be unfair,

Cause at the end of the day my story to write,

Theres no miraculous decision maker to hold me tight,

Each road that cross and bed I sleep in,

Changes the course of my life and what is happenin,

So to blame the unlucky or turn to sky,

And be the ungratefull that say they'd rather die,

Is to push the blame on down the line,

And some of us at the bottom have to go and face the fine,

Whilst dealing with our own fate and all it includes,

Theres not enough colours in the rainbow to suit all of my moods,

But I've never had to exactly go steal

To the point where kleptomania is all that I can feel,

Be a false truth to say I'd never gone pyro,

Pretty much burning money while theres some people on gyro,

Then reality looms as you start to grow,

All the people you burnt and burnt you, you no longer know,

Cause at the end of the day money makes the word go round,

Right now my world has stopped spinning and started to crash down,

But the bitter sweet irony just keeps me in check,

And if you've read this far I'll be done in a sec,

There was no point to story it's just things I had to say,

Cause each day it gets harder and tomorrows another day,

I wrote this whole thing in a continuous blur,

So sorry for any loss of punctuation or grammatical errors that occur,

Thank you for reading and I hope you do again,

And I'm sorry that some of couplets are all the same.

Robin

  

Forgotten In A Fortnight

Monday was just a conversation,
The next few the phone had a constant buzz,
By the time we hit the weekend,
She was phoning me up drunk just cause,
Saw me on the sunday night,
And then thing got a little bit rare,
Leaving us both accomplished,
Just holding hands while we sit and stare,
Cracking back through to Monday,
She's scared that it's all going too fast,
Left me spinning out for a few days,
But then back in the game at last.
Then Thursday she gave it to me,
and on Friday I made up my mind,
But Saturday she had to blow me off,
Sunday there were few kind words to find.
So we find ourselves back at Monday,
Trying to kiss her and make things right,
But she said she couldn't keep me going,
And suprise to all I'm forgotten In a fortnight

The Ballad of Puddles and Riddles (Part 2)

Now how can I stand here and sing you a song?
Got a feeling in the dark that somethings gone wrong,
Pulling chest prangs bring me back to reality,
Coming down but headstrong leaving me feelin shitty,
We are so crooked creatures straffing around,
Getting kicks out of people that are liking our sound,
Just the boys in the band gunna get us respect and,
If we don't go at it to hard then we might not get sectioned,
Like your doing pints of vodka instead of necking shots,
I'm not ripping off people i'm just getting back all the grots,
I really didn't mean to cause offence in my care for you,
I know you think i found little leisure in that repayment i'm due,
So don't take a moral highground theres no pension in that,
I won't fade away I'll burn out in that place that we sat,
We're gunna take it in reverse the effects of us turning old,
You and me in our little spiral the greatest rock n roll story yet to be told.

This will define ramble.

Woken up in so many rooms that are so scary,
Waking up in silence having gone sleep ever so larey,
Gettin pissed off at the unbeleivable state of your finance,
I'd be happy to observe let alone get myself a chance,
The twenty two comes at exactly five past the hour,
It would be a lamp post bus stop i'm stood at in this shower,
Drifting in and out of thoughts or the tug of war in your mind,
between the evil that completes you and beautiful and kind,
You've pushed it so far away that it's gunna come back round,
And having not spoke in a while would you recognise her sound?
It's safe to assume that she's at least in the game of rope,
Pulling her weight evenly as you just hit and then hope,
You've spun out your friends and the web lies has been weaved,
All the people who trust you blindly have just been deceived,
But there faith is something that stops them to suspicion,
All too preoccupied in there own little mission,
I never wanted to have to convey emotion in rhyme,
but truth be told to seek help i dont have the money or time,
She knows she's in your head cause she's quite happy to chat,
tinseling little princess i struggle to bear the thought of that,
You fucked it in your head your just waiting for your body to regain,
the energy to complete the undeniable track like your bodies a train,
A metaphor for life or a metaphor for when all has just bout gone wrong,
I've been walking miles through the past while and it feels so long
Yes i do definately deserve to have some time to fuck about,
but deserving something don't stop time, work to be done without a doubt.

Thick

Must be a prick and a half to be so daft,
Your chasing something that has more than once has given you the shaft.
So keep on singin when you win and sing when you lost.
To forward to realise in public is a line you shouldn't have crossed.
But the open then closed and smiles and frowns.
Are something she didn't mean to have drag you through the downs,
Cause that vulnerable side you think only you got to see,
In the grand scheme of things was a side that was only half moon to be,
Your the same when your alone and ever so trashed,
Your own self reliance inadequacy couldn't help but push it to fast,
But blame yourself all you want but she said things too,
Ever so safe in your arms she had to say that she was falling for you,
So is it wrong to assume that what she wanted was me?
Cause her hidden from friends feelings was she wanted nothing more than to be.
If you read this and you think that i cannot let go,
Look at how you felt and the try and tell me you did not want to know,
Cause no human alive could feel what you said you felt,
Then push to the back of your mind like some kind of bad hand got dealt,
Was that just a lie just to get the kicks that you crave?
I still don't blame you for gettin in with someone you probably had to cave,
I'm sorry cause a little fraction of this up on facebook,
Was last time enough for me to get a week without a even just a look.
Do you also think that your friends may have stirred,
made me out to be some kind of enemy having never met or spoken a word.
So you brought into there insight so experienced and grand,
But at the time of the backseat you did say they would not understand,
Still i'd never expect you to argue with your class,
For something so new and fragile you could have mistaken it for glass.
So over the bridge I'd be suprised if you knew,
Exacty what I'm talking about here and what of it refers to you,
But trust me this is about a whole load of things,
Your just a good metaphor for all things in life that stings.

It's A Beautiful Day.

Theres lads running round jacked up, failing your abstinance
Girls being raped so bad you dunno wether to phone the police or call for an ambulance
Look out your window and i mean literally take a look,
It's like a fucking nightmare town or something out of a George Orwell book,
The problems not here,so fucking ignorant you can't see the state,
A small little town with The highest teen pregnancy, alcoholic and suicide rate.
Poster up the empty shops to cover economy's shame,
Out of the thieves, bandits,smackheads, rapists, dealers its the kids that we blame,
Slap him an Asbo, and make him the databases issue,
Then patrol the streets kicking up the houses while the poor cough blood into tissues.
30 years gone since all to do is a-levels and degrees,
All for us is lost without that signed piece of paper that cost nine grand a year in fees
While pensioners ride buses for free with new cars on the street
I'll be working till I die from old age and probably still be stood on my feet
Surely a coalition renders a leader obsolete so who rules?
All i can see is that if thatcher was the movie than Camerons  the sequel.

To do a nightout in your hometown.

I ain't gunna fiddle cause i know the cost,
how a little bit of lightning turns into frost,
and a pretty little glimmer keeps your eyes up front,
While the lonely go around on a rabbit chase hunt,
Don't whisper in my ear your little alibi,
I ain't good looking but i may aswell try,
Think of the crack on the side of the door,
and not about how your gettin so stiff and sore,
keeping running on to the tune of passing cars,
while your falling down he'll be raising the bars,
Taste the little trickle coming from your upper lip,
I may be clever but im kinda in need of a tip,
That doesnt mean i don't care for the truth and past,
but I only got you for a second so i had to make it last,
Telling your mother that you ain't back tonight,
going round your friends house and that you'll be alright,
She's sitting up thinking about where you are,
Where the fuck your going and is it very far,
Sliding in dresses that you bought from primark,
Moneys up your nose, so hide the label in the dark,
If you wake up and sneak out the house in time,
you might get to the refunds without waiting in line,
unlikely image getting blurred with another alcopop,
So nasty smashed you spilt it all down your top,
Kiss the lad next to you so they think your just drunk,
Ignoring the sensation your whole body just sunk,
talk about the windows and how real it all looks,
and all the useless shit you learnt in hello but claim its from books,
getting back to point made at the start,
take a little second to watch the break of her heart,
looking in the mirror to see if your fit,
while the others girls use the cubicles to sit,
the creepy lipstick smear on the soap machine,
a subtle ironic question about whether or not its clean.
Small town crowd in an upmarket place,
With sole goal of getting wrecked off your face,
Escape the harbour if its getting too lary,
the back alley bars when your pissed aint scary,
bloke asking if you need to get speed,
you point out the fact you got all you need,
theres other dealers standing next to the thumper,
money out the machine, get gram for a small lumper,
don't mean that you lowered the tone,
but your gunna have to crawl back to your house all alone,
flirting with bouncers to try and get in,
lucky sixteen year olds with tits always win.
While the few of us with passports and money have to que,
now there not allowing entry starting with you,
double back and go back to wetherspoons,
rubbing shoulders with alcys and there lack of tunes,
or try and sneak in when the flacks turn away,
if they catch you have script of what your gunna say,
tell them your mate left his phone in there,
and you need to book a cab and he's the only one with credit spare,
so please mr bouncer go on let us in,
the girl's look topper and I'm on to a win,
the brunette girl said she'd meet me in here,
and i swear im not dropped im being sinscere,
i just need to get her number i mean right now,
cause every passing seconds a potential threat somehow,
you were young once going out to every place,
the remarks of his age spurs him to smack you in the face,
So just call it a night cause up till now was fun,
only one hundred and sixty-eight hours til another one.

Some would say it's insight.

If your going through a rough patch, Don't stop or slow down.
Cause infinity is impossible and you'll reach the end somehow,
And Sure you may get there it's just a red brick wall,
Thats too deep to go under and can't be climbed it's too tall,
But at least then you can learn to welcome your fate,
Adapting as an entity, learn to love the things you did hate.
Cause your lifes never been certain and it's flipped over before,
You were always one to smash in the window before checking the door,
But that don't mean you can't see the difference between right and wrong,
Each chapter of your life usually shorter than it is long,
So keep running on and sooner or later you'll find your out,
But when you get there then won't be the time for self-doubt,
Cause you never really know when that rough will come back,
So take the good with the bad, think of what you have not what you lack.

Made my day

Only for a second, felt like a second chance.
The reality of meeting dragged me from a trance,
Only two words spoken, both of which the same,
I think my voice broke a little, so i lowered my head in shame,
I was heading in one direction, and you were to the other,
first time that i caught your eye since it was all over.
I'm not reading into this too much as thats my Achilles heel,
But for the first time in a while a sense of relief i began to feel,
Your smile had an element, of a complete surprise,
The unexpected honesty of it showed up in your eyes,
But hey you probably didn't notice, but why the hell would you?
Cause your not lucky enough to have had that smile, smiling back at you.
And that tiny little gesture of a grin and a just hey,
Insignificant as it seems just went and made my day.

Straighten it out

He still believes in music,
He just lost his faith in love,
Water seeping in the ground,
Is from the clouds above
A little bit alone
And a little bit afar,
A traitor to the people
He's a well established liar,
Writing down his words,
For everyone to see,
There blind to hidden meanings,
and read on happily,
Each one more of a letter,
He's never gunna send,
The pen and scrap of paper,
The most loyaler of friend.
He get's lost in his words,
But tries not to sever ties,
For every word he says,
Is proportionally lies.
He's getting writers block,
and it's because of it is her,
Maybe cause the ending,
has yet to occur.
His rhymes are getting faster,
But his mind is slowing down.
Racing through the streets screaming,
We'll live and die in this town,
His minds gone in pursuit,
Of a better place to be,
But he can't stretch imagination,
to places he can't see.
Thinking that he stole his life,
No better than a crook,
It's hard enough to see yourself,
Let alone a second look,
Now pages and pages of writing,
are filling up his space,
All of them just ramblings,
from when he's off his face,
Don't tell the boy you know him,
Cause he doesn't know himself,
He knows your there really,
and concerned about his health,
But to battle with your demons,
we all must fight alone,
Cause you haven't won yourself back,
if you weren't alone.
It don't mean he don't need you,
Or that he doesn't care,
But sometimes people don't wanna talk,
they just wanna sit and stare.
It all comes round in circles,
and everyone has bad days,
each and every person,
handles it in different ways,
And I'll never argue with you,
that tomorrows not a new day,
But sometimes it can fuck up,
like the day before in every single way,
Do not take this personally,
Theres no god to not be on your side,
And someone you loves emotion,
You just can not divide,

No Such Thing As Harmless Flirting.

I gotta stop her and give me time to think,
Is it a good Idea to try and buy her a drink?
Cause she's giving me the signs and I'm gettin all flirty,
If my misses found out then she'd probably hurt me,
I wonder what she's thinking when my minds far away
Elements of speech are something i'm finding hard to say,
Who's gunna be the one who walks away content tonight,
Cause now I'm here either way I leave it, It'll end in a fight.

So I stand up and say 'I'm so sorry love but I gotta get out'
So now either way it's fucked without a shadow of a doubt,
and I better find signal cause her last text was a little flared,
I know I'm big and she's little but I'm still pretty scared.

I gotta stop here and give me time to think,
Cause already pretty drowsy but i can fund another drink,
The times giving me the signs that looks a bit dirty,
I'm staring at people who would definitely hurt me,
I can't process these thoughts that are running through my head,
Cause just lying tongue twisters is all I have said.
So grab your coat mate cause your nights already done,
Whats her fucking problem with you just having fun?

So I stand up and say to her "What you fucking on about"
Somehow now she's looking taller I'm fucked without doubt,
She'll never back down now cause she's already flared,
I don't mean to push you away, I was just running scared.

Now I've gotta wake up just to do it again,
Each morning it's harder cause I'm swimming upstream in vein,
The clock ticks the beats that I'm writing these words to,
Look at yourself in the mirror saying "Wouldn't wanna be you"
You can't tell if she bought into the fiction on your lips,
Your pretty little keeper with her hands on her hips,
Giving you a disappointed look that stings and it's hurting,
Her actions spelling out the words "No such thing as harmless flirting"

The Ballad of Puddles and Riddles

None of us are friends were just alone together,
I swear how I feels starting to effect the weather,
More bored of the scenario than hurt it occurs,
with my articulate speech turning into just slurs,
They said it was to fast and it'll only die young,
they think cause they know you they know what we sung,
So the irony puddles is we don't know our own fate,
You can't see the future or the time, place or date.
So the ballad of Puddles and Riddles is yet to be told,
And were hanging so young but were feeling so old.
Try not to say what your thinking, it drives me insane,
too see you lighting up fires while I blow out the flame.
They say we ain't got a chance of ever breaking through,
Get stuck chasing something while they try catch us too,
and we are moving to slow for thinking to fast,
so will the Going Blind ship be our own at last?

Day 1

Finding yourself washed up on the rocks you've dealt yourself this hand,
Only you too pick yourself up cause you can't wait until they turn to sand,
The only senses you feel to be true to you is just what your eyes can see,
But would you be the first to be tricked into an oasis that you believed to be?
Knowing now that what you thought you knew has evidently fell behind,
Would it be safe to assume to yourself that your love is no longer blind?
So why has your mind brought you on to this place of barren nothingness?
To find in yourself the person, place or time you wouldn't have settled for less.
Now tired, dirty, alone you realise that you want nothing more than more time,
To take back the feelings felt and word you spoke no more of a victimless crime,
You see the thing is about feelings is that eventually they will come to fade,
as in how even the brightest summer days will keep some people in shade,
and the words you spoke to me my dear can never or ever be un-heard,
because you have given me all the sun and shade in the form of spoken word
The tide rolls in and water washes against your feet just try and understand,
It's not just you that is walking the thin line between the sea and the land,
this precise moment represents what you will come to feel each and everyday,
the decision of your heart to make to stay and try or to just move away.